I thought everything would go just fine when the boyfriend entered NS. But it had never been the same - No more late night talks, no more bickerings, no more laughter, no more meeting as often as and when we want. This is getting too insane for me, 2 weeks seem forever to come.
Everytime i thought of him, i would peek through our random pictures. Now that i am so busy with my school work and trainings, it might well be good for me to be occupied - to get rid of him off my thoughts for a moment or so. However, it can only sustain for that particular moment and thoughts of him would come flooding through again. I am starting to feel remorsed at how i treated him when i got so upset or pissed, literally about nothing and he had to suffer in silence, incapable of rebuking. And i would always criticise him badly out of nothing, yet he still kept silent. Despite all that i've done, he'll try his best to cheer me up. Now im so appreciative of what he had done.
Everytime i thought of him, i would peek through our random pictures. Now that i am so busy with my school work and trainings, it might well be good for me to be occupied - to get rid of him off my thoughts for a moment or so. However, it can only sustain for that particular moment and thoughts of him would come flooding through again. I am starting to feel remorsed at how i treated him when i got so upset or pissed, literally about nothing and he had to suffer in silence, incapable of rebuking. And i would always criticise him badly out of nothing, yet he still kept silent. Despite all that i've done, he'll try his best to cheer me up. Now im so appreciative of what he had done.
The boyfriend:
I missed the happy mad times we had. Its the beginning of counting down to 12 days.
Limited smses, restricted number of calls and early lights out. When times are tough like this, I'll take your hand and walk through the journey with you.
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