I hope you are sweet, december

Hi December, it is less than a weeks' time. One year ago at this period, rejoiced with a medal in Regatta, mugged real hard at home, december holidays and down with an illness. One year later, here i am, another Regatta down, no longer mugging, no more holidays and i recovered. In a flash of a ligthning, this is how everything behaves. I am pretty excited for the new team, however differences are inevitable and will certainly surface. Clash of the Titans.

The boyfriend, after a long break not having to stay in, finally got his imprisonment again. More field camps to come, something i'd always abhor since the day he shaved his head botak. Staying in means no more tv and computer for him, no more talking as freely as i want in the night. Good or bad? I felt pretty guilty when i compared the boyfriend's bank book and mine. It was a far cry. Maybe it is time i should inherit the habit to save. I ran as far as my legs could carry. It led me to somewhere.

Nice shorts, zak(:

Home alone tonight

My life is a bleak now that i have no idea what is going to happen next and with the fickleness in me, i'll probably won't make up my mind on certain stuff. There're so much to say and to do but often, i would stop to ponder so much that it'll take forever to realise those things. Maybe burying myself with intensive trainings, studying and reading will keep my thoughts away for the time being. Will you understand if i confide?

Let me introduce this dog who brightens up my day although i shun her everytime she comes near me because i am afraid it will lick me and drip saliva on me. Her name is girl girl, she is the boyfriend's aunt's dog. One thing i'll never forget was when she got so excited and humped on the boyfriend's leg once. I was at the boyfriend's on thursday and i suggested to walk the dog while waiting for someone to pick me up. She got so excited and span around with glee. No doubt, she peps my day(:

A jellyfish changes its color like I do

It is 1 month 5 days to my birthday and 1 month 9 days to Christmas. December is my beloved because it is the month of my birthday, it spells the end of the year, it is a season of sharing & giving and it is the monsoon period where wet cooling days are due to set in. It sure feels dramatically hasty at how i am going to be 1 year older, how year 2009 is soon to be history, how me & the boyfriend had come this far (many years to come still), how everything has settled in for me and how people come and go.

After a duber long weekend, it is time to hit the piles on my working desk; more sit-ins which i abhor. I would always do some improper sitting positions to fidget in my seat but hecked it because no one would bother to see the unglam side of me. And i just got started on my japanese class last tuesday - aunties and students;i've yet to study for a spelling for tomorrow. It sure brings me back to the good old days in primary school when i studied hard for each spelling to score a perfect 100. Maybe not now. Will it?

I've yet to do a little shopping for people who matter the most to me. How will Christmas do without a christmas list and gifts right? Here is my list, it would probably take a century to own them.

1. Dolce & Gabbana ring

2. Tiffany & Co charm bracelet

3. Kate Spade bag

4. A closet full of clothes

5. A rack filled with footwears

6. Actually, anything that are given to me, i'll like it(:

All it matters is the thought that counts. I love the idea of pressies, be it big or small, cheap or pricey because i love receiving it, as well as giving it out. The smile that often displayed, is pure genuine happiness and makes me smile too. I am now planning on the gifts with a budget. Well, maybe my baking skills will come to use at this point of time.

Underwater World;




My splurges of the month;

Pasta Mania @ TM;

This dog is cute though i shun when it comes near me;

Mystery man in my dreams;

Stay with me until my heart stops beating

When i was still a kid, i thought my mum to be a nuisance because all she'd ever did was nag and hit. Now, i've come to realise all she'd intended was to protect me and embrace me right from the beginning. She is always the first to share my woes and happiness, she gave her all to be right by my side when i needed her and when i mentioned by my side, it meant literally.

However, i don't deny she get on my nerves at times and my tone would always be harsh. Certainly, it does hurt. Many a times, i just want to say 'I am sorry, mummy. I love you'. My ego often robs me of these simple words. And if there comes a day when she's no longer around, i would not know what to do because she's the one i love...then, now and forever. It won't change. Can i keep her with me even after i pass on?

There're so much i want to do for and with her. I want to give her the best that i can provide, just to see a smile across her face. Time is an issue and how long more will i be able to lavish her with all these - 4 years? 10 years? Her pressence matters more than anyone else because she's my primary source of motivation. Yes, i love her dearly.

There is a mask behind everything

It is 2 weeks' time to Regatta and this is the worst ever feeling that i am caught with, for the whole 3 years when the race was always nearing. I can't help but insists this upcoming event is insignificant anymore, the once held esteem of it are all gone. Probably the change made everything seems different - teamwork, discipline, trainings, people. The pictures stored, now exude those beautiful memoirs i once held on so tightly and even till now.

My extremely long-distant relatives are coming to my hometown in 2 days' time and i've yet to play host to them. I cannot really think of any fascinating places besides the usuals. Any suggestions? Playing host means i have to sacrifice 2 days of unpaid leave but on a lighter note, it means no work and free time. Work had been far much better as compared to the previous;stress-free environment with friendly people.

The amount of time to download the pictures in each of my entry is consuming too much time and many a times, i haven't got the patience to wait and laziness always sets in. I realise my blog had become a food-peekture blog. Here it goes(:

Anthony's Birthday;

Late lunch at MOF Marina;

Tumbler with loves;

It doesn't matter if the sun don't shine anymore

It is palpitating to know how soon year 2008 is going to end. Hello 2009? I am not prepared for this transition because it means there will be changes - people growing older, society changing, standard of living getting higher and as for me, time to make concrete plans. The plan now is to get myself drowned in those huge piles of notes and unceasing lectures in the coming year.

Happy Birthday Anthony Tan! You won't be able to read this because you are unaware of the existence of this blog. It was celebrated in advance on Saturday at Hanabi Japanese Restaurant. I can say the sashimi were superb and we had about 10-12 plates of the mix platter. However, due to the shortage of manpower, service was damn slow. After dinner, headed down to Dempsey for Ben & Jerry and my mum, as usual made us all laugh with her silly act.

Footprints in the sand

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the sky and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life had flashed before him,he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his life there was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,you'd walk with me all the way.I don't understand why, when I needed you most,you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious child.I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints...
That was when I carried you."