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Shifted

2010-05-18T16:40:00.001+08:00

Hi Peeps, i've shifted to http://aprettyfacade.wordpress.com

The voice within

2010-01-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

It'd been a busy start since the beginning of the year because i was pretty caught up with myself and the people around me. Now that all those worthy celebrations are over; kicking in with school and trainings, hoping to bring me to a new height. However, no new year resolution is made because i do not wish to bind myself. Let's just journey through this course of the year.

On the mention of school, i've yet to drill myself to revise consistently; at least after every lectures. Sadly, i am still idling in my holiday mood- something not to be proud of. However, on a side note, my face is terribly peeling off after that saturday's scorching hot rowing session. I would now love to have a facial treatment that would rid off the ugly patches instantly. I hope it recovers in time for the lunar new year.

Side tracking, the boyfriend had been in spf for quite some time since last year. It seemed like forever that he's taking the Monday to Friday stay in and Sunday book in route. I've pretty gotten used to this routine but i hope things will get better soon. Speaking of which, Friday is approaching in 2 days' time(:

Tea is always bitter without sugar

2009-12-30T09:27:00.003+08:00

Someone lately asked me "So what's the feeling of being 21? Old?" I couldn't really gave a precise answer instantly. So what about being 21 and creating a hoo-haa about it? I'd just go with the flow; hold a memorable one and had a bash out of it. Well, now that it happened, it seemed more like a gathering for some and i felt a sense of accomplishment; to be able to gather most of my friends together on that day. Being 21 sure feels old but if my appearance don't give myself away, i guess it's alright. And it's also time to kick in some facial and skin products to maintain that tight and wrinkleless skin. I've lived for 21 years....so what have i really accomplished? I can say everyday was a learning journey and even till now, i am still in the process. I've been coop in the study circle for almost as long as i lived and awaits to step in the working world in say, 2 years' time. Things will fall into place then and another new chapter will begin its write up.

2010 in 1 day's time(:

LOVES!

Legally legal

2009-12-23T11:05:00.004+08:00

The big hoo haa that i've been preparing for, was over in just a split second. A successful and an awesome one...credits to the SPDB girls and not to forget my dear Yunn Sin who gave all she could for this bash. Everyone had a good one on that day and it certainly feels warm to have most of my friends present.

It is into the second last week of December and Santa is on his way in 2 more days. I am glad the month of december was filled with laughter, joy and fun; with much catching ups and mingling around. And not to mention, the festive spirit is in the air and for some reasons, this year is gonna end good and nice with some sugar and spice.

Meanwhile, it is mambo later with the SIMdb peeps, meant to be an After Race Celebration; after going through doses of tough trainings. Well...school is going to start soon and training is going to resume soon, let me indulge in more merry making before everything kickstarts again.

PS: Looking forward to the boyfriend's leave-clearing and the family Christmas dinner <3

And so it goes on

2009-12-07T23:15:00.003+08:00

As i'm writing this, pangs of a heavy heart engulfed me. I've just finished exchanging smses with the boyfriend and it sure is evident that the time we're spending and communicating are minimised over the time. It'll be a made-up if i insist i do not miss the boyfriend. When time evolves, things get a little different from the way it used to be; then he & she were still schooling with dragonboating, she schooling he in the army and now she schooling with he in the workforce.

The thought of settling down young with the boyfriend had ever come across my mind but given the situation now, we'll have to work harder towards it. Even though thoughts were not exchanged on this topic, i'd always hold onto this fairytale moment. Maybe things are not as perfect and pleasant as those depicted in fairytale stories but i'd wish for mine too.

Anyway, the boyfriend got me an itouch in advance for my birthday, just to make it in time for my trip to Penang this thursday(: Yes...it's so sweet of him. Despite so, he had burnt a huge hole in his pocket. BUT...i'm so loving him and it(:

Time will only make things better and us stronger.

Give me a little something

2009-12-02T08:39:00.002+08:00

Novmber was a past tense with pretty much activities going on then- movies marathoning (New Moon was utterly disappointing after a year's wait), never-ending trainings, Regatta was a hit and topping up with the not-so-often chill out days.

Finally the time of the year arrived, it's December! I'd always relish in this month, probably because it is the month of giving with gifts exchange and festive celebrations. For this year, i'm planning meticulously for my 21st birthday bash, of course with much help from my dearest pals. Time is running out because the transition from November to December hasn't change that much for trainings - non stop hits almost everyday. Exhaustion will eventually catch up with me and at the end of the day, nothing productive will be accomplised. Let's hope Penang Pesta will be a good one to pay off those painful tongue lashing sessions.

The not-so important issue aside, tomorrow will be a day destiny has paved out for me because my results will be released. I've gave it all and done my best so let's await for the finale.

On a brighter note, i'm a few hours away to meet my dearest girls for my birthday deco shopping. The theme will be Noel in Classics. We'll try to make it a christmasy one, if not, a classic one.

Some overdue pictures to be posted up soon because blogger ain't working now.

So short yet so close

2009-11-17T17:24:00.002+08:00

Weekend had come to a close and the next weekend is approaching soon. This is the rate how i live my life now because literally, everyday is filled with trainings and limited rest. After rowing for a good whole 5 years under the scorching hot sun, i seriously have to pray hard it will not take a toll on my skin in the years to come. 5 years rowing with different teams in between - the process and experiences are priceless. Well...people have to move on but those acquaintances and knowledge will stay for as long as we live.

Regatta is happening over the weekends and i hope for the best from it because everyone whacked hard and got whacked badly too. He was so not magnanimous to us at all but we all took it well.

On a side note, i'm in the midst of planning for my birthday. I am pretty pleased to know that i have such great friends((: Thank you to all, especially this someone who helped me gotten this chalet.

Till the end of 2009, i've got things to do:

1) Less than a week time, Regatta Race
2) 3 weeks time, Penang Race
3) 4 weeks time, 21st Birthday Bash
4) 5 weeks time, Christmas

PS: I've not seen the boyfriend for almost one week 2 days now because i was confined in camp and feeding mosquitoes. Let's await for the weekends(:

All it takes to be now

2009-10-30T09:17:00.002+08:00

Viola! This is gonna be my first post since ages ago. Yes...i am pretty busy with school because exams are now on the go and i am struggling through it with ease. I wish. My brain cells are totally damaged by those excessive memory space taken up, i need to inject some rejuvenation to pep it up again. Anyway, i haven't been catching up with anyone lately - not to mention i did with Vincent. And that's pretty much about it because i have little time to spare. Those HDs and Ds are so far fetched now that my first paper almost spelt trouble. One down, two to go. Please help me get this over and done with and see myself proceeding to the next semester smoothly. I seriously need to be back for trainings once everything ended, if not i'll be the utimate loser. Ciao.

A nest to coop in

2009-10-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

Due to pardonable reasons, i havent been updating recently. I am pretty caught up with much school work and trainings, no words will suffice to convey the fatigue i am experiencing. And its starting all over for the boyfriend who booked in hours ago because he had dedicated his service to the police force. All i can say is i would expect what is going to come next (more or less) but well, this is not as bad as the armed forces. For now, it will be the weekends book-outs and book-ins with no field camps to look forward to. A big no no.

On a lighter note, school semster is going to end with examinations in oct/nov and with the late night outs and fun i've been engaging lately, i got to abstain till this period is over. Seriously. Its the beginning of October and everything seems to be perfectly smooth. Let's hope things will remain this way.

PS: I missed dwelling in my comfort zone, sipping a cup of milo with a novel in my hand. And probably with the boyfriend gaming by the side. It simply feels great to snuggle up together on a rainy day like this.

The not-so-perfect snapshot

2009-09-22T09:40:00.002+08:00

I'm squezing in some space to write now because i foresee i won't be able to grasp that much time later this week. Given the current school loads and commitments, i am struggling to gasp for air as the clock ticks away, this is suffocating.

Somehow or rather i've become the shepherd to lead a pack of sheeps who are simply waiting for the shepherd's instructions without initiating. We've come to this stage to be an undergraduate and i cannot see why some people do not behave like one. Frustrating.

On a side note, my body is still recovering from the consecutive 3 days training and today will be the 4th. Besides, i still have unperformed fitness tests to complete. I am really at my threshold and seriously need a good rest.

Anyway, trying to advert for my friend's sister's blogshop: http://herdaintybelle.livejournal.com
Do take a look peeps(: Perks: $2 discount on every piece you buy and free registered post!

Will do the pictures later tonight if possible. To school now. Ciao(:

Irrationale is not part of me

2009-09-13T09:55:00.005+08:00

Let me sneak in something while this site is back on track(:

I was pretty upset with my behavior with insufficient rationale thinking and blurted out things to the boyfriend that i only meant in a rage. This is not how things work;at least not for me when im turning 21 soon - entering into adulthood. I inevitably admit people do err but on my part, it is quite an unforgivable act. Again, the boyfriend lets me off this time round.

Everybody wants to treasure everyone and everything that matter but sometimes when thing gets alittle out of control, it simply gets through one's head without even having a thorough thought to it.

We just have to push through this phase and ride it.

There're so much more we can do under the sun and i cant wait for those. For now, its time to hit my forever-ending notes.

I will salvage the falling tree

2009-09-10T11:13:00.000+08:00

As i'm writing this, it's the morning of typical Thursdays, getting ready to welcome the new television and speaker sets due to arrive soon. Blogger had not been behaving very well lately because the same problem prevails again and ever so constantly that i'd like to give up uploading any pictures and simply blog without those.

School had been pretty hectic with semester long project, upcoming tests and examinations, i'd have to forgo trainings this time round, if neccessary. It is now that i understood why my friends mug so hard when they enter university life. Time to prioritise what's important and what's not at this juncture;once bitten twice shy. Anyway, its only a month since i am in the new found team and i'm already hearing most of them failing certain modules so they'll be leaving prolly in december when the dragonboat scene subsides then. Disheartening it may sound, but decisions have to be made somehow or rather.

I am envious of those who balanced well in their studies and sports. In the meantime, while i am still striving to attain this, i'd better place my focus more on the former. In approx 3hrs' time, will be breezing through the comex fair for a external hard disk just in case my lappy fails on me again.

If tomorrow never comes

2009-08-24T00:36:00.005+08:00

I attempted to write in this space, hopeful that all the functions are perfectly fine again. And voila...it is! I was already half-heartedly convincing myself on the switch this afternoon because multiple failing attempts made me do so. 2009 is into the last week of August now, this makes the fourth week since school started. Everything is moving pretty fast forward becuase in 2 weeks' time, comes the tests and in another month's time, it'll be exams. Can life be like that of 'Click' where i possess a remote control to reverse back time when i need it and fast forward time when i do not? Precisely, it's a no.

Friday did a little catching up with gwen&shiya and saturday was a typical rowing day where i got myself burnt like a red lobster while waiting for the Austcham 10km race to start off and also the impromptu gleeful stayover at the boyfriend's because im too worn out and lazy to get home. Staying in had been our favourite past time eversince dont-know-when because this is what we call wind down and it helps now that the boyfriend's has my new found love- SCV with animal planet(: Sunday was exceptionally rare because i skipped training for school work, with sleeping in on a rainy day, it had never felt so good before.

Colors and pictures brings an insight to my world.

The micro-facts neglected

2009-08-13T10:00:00.000+08:00

I had urges to write this space for sometime but the thought of writing a post without pictures simply spells MUNDANE. Once again, i cannot upload pictures onto blogger and this shows how ineffiecient this site is. Maybe i'll do a little switch to livejournal if only i have the time to figure out its not so user-friendly functions. Some back logging to do - school kicked in last week and yes, i was ubber ecstatic about it but only to find out everything was a killer and since last week, everyday were lectures, this week is supposedly a break cum self revision week. Its thursday now and i've managed only half a module's topics. Besides, i am on a mass look out for tuition assignments or project based ones;a hard search i reckon.
Side tracking, i've had a fabulous time with the boyfriend this week because we finally get to catch a movie (GI JOE) afterall, did some eatings and shoppings. Simple things like these are loved(: And today is the day the boyfriend got his job interview, hope he made it to the 2nd round, then it will be camp life and shiftwork for him.
Anyway, uneventful happening is bound to appear; i carelessly left my shoebag at SDBA with the barely months old shoe in it and i made the boyfriend drove down from his house to kallang just to find it missing. In the end, i bought a new pair and i really appreciate his act.

Humans are flawed and all we have to do is accept them wholeheartedly for who they are.

Time explains uncertainty

2009-07-29T19:02:00.000+08:00

I've left this space rather empty because blogger obviously has some errors to it;i can't post any pictures. Is it just me or everyone is experiencing the same problem? Because seriously,i need to vandalise this space a little.
Sometimes i really need to get my feelings checked before acting and this always vexed me out so much that i take it out on the boyfriend. Yes..he has become my virtual sandbag. However, the many times i mentioned he is nice enough to let me be;he is really that nice. Weekends are extravagance eating sprees before all the trainings start;still unknown of all that is going to happen. From Angus charcoal grill to $50 fishhead steamboat to Udder's lychee martini, earl grey, mao shan wang ice cream and to Modesto's.

Last friday was our 3rd anniversary but the boyfriend got something on, so we posted our time together to the next day and watched a horror melodrama comedy 'Murderer', calls for a roll of laughter towards the end of the show. We gave Harry Potter a miss because of bad critics but i secretly want to catch it soon with the boyfriend. Dinner was at Modesto's, food was nice, ambience was reasonable, feeling was right and of cause, my companion was fabulous;what more can i ask for? It had been long since we dine together like this because almost every weekends would be dinner with our family. Oooh..and did i mention the boyfriend got to clear his leaves starting yesterday, i was definitely happy to hear this; him getting out of his busy work, him catching up with his friends, him gaming all day long and me spending more time with him before SPF starts for him(: He'd always know what makes me smile but would choose do it in a discreet way, alternatively, he'd be left in the dark wondering what exactly i want;a wooden plank i reckon. All in all...i love you.

My weekly count down has been shorten down to say, a couple of days to end of work and start of a new school term. It's time to get textbooks, print out notes, stock up stationery and clothes hunt in my closet.

PS: I still cant upload pics onto blogger, someone help please!!!

Indispenable heroes

2009-07-14T21:11:00.004+08:00

I want to write today because only it will express how i am feeling. I sincerely feel ecstatic today because i realise no matter how tough the route ahead gets, i still have my mum & the boyfriend. These are the two important person who made an impact on my life because they've been through my worst with me. I've grown and am still growing with them both. And to my dear friends who had been there for me, you girls are loved!

I took a halfay leave to look for the boyfriend because he is finally (takes forever) taking off and it means more time together. Nothing beats seeing the boyfriend happily (lazily) relaxed at home(: After everything, i headed home and met my mum halfway through for dinner at JP and i noticed something. Something warmth and worthy to share about- a son and a mum were dining together on their individual hotpots, the mum went to get more food. While waiting for the mum to be back, the son actually filled the mum's bowl with the cooked food he prepared for her. Well..such simple things just warm my heart at that instant.

All your presence do matter in times of happiness and woes

Towards a green day

2009-07-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

I've been an ardent fan of the mystery behind Geisha eversince the book 'Memoirs of s Geisha'. Recently, i've come across this article in Asian Geographic on Geisha. It is a downright shame that they're often regarded as prostitutes even to these days. The fomer is evidently a far cry from the latter. Geishas are a rare lot in Japan and they have to go through apprenticeship to become professional art performers. Geisha means 'artist', their existence is to bring art and beauty into the world. They would always don on their intricately designed kimonos, their well known mask-like make up and their meticulously done hairdo. However much the article touch on, it is afterall a research study on Geishas with not much insight into the lives of Geishas. In the meanwhile, i can only read up more on them while hoping there's a time when i can visit Kyoto someday and catch a glimpse of these mysterious beauties before they 'extinct'.

Third week of the month and i've no doubt been catching up with my friends. What's missing is the absence of the boyfriend because of the ever-so-dreaded duties he needs to perform every week. Not forgetting this week was a special case which he had 3 duties, almost consecutively. I can only rant to him,no matter how much i hated it. It was heart-wrenching to see the boyfriend coming down a fever and flu symptoms and performing the duties. Sense of relief swam into me only when i got to see the boyfriend on a Friday night. Worried.

Backlogging of pictures coming up soon because it takes quite sometime to load those pictures. Ciao!

A hard knock deserves

2009-07-07T21:03:00.003+08:00

I want to make you happy
Laugh like you only live for today

I have no idea what is wrong with my lappy because apparently, i'm the only one who cannot upload pictures onto blogger and this is certainly something that gets on me. This have to mean my entries will be dull and monotonous without the visuals. Eversince i got my lappy reformatted, no more photoshop (no idea where the CD went to), no more microsoft office (i am still looking for one to install), no more photos (i have no backup) and now, the function to upload pictures onto blogger is somehow blocked. I can barely survive without these, save me someone!
Today i received a call from a tuition agency and the assignment given was to a primary 3 boy, EMS, twice a week, 1.5hrs a day and budget was 160bucks. The thing special about this assignment is this little boy has cancer and just went for chemotherapy, this explains the budget. I am still waiting for a confirmation on this assignment though. I hope i won't be too emotional to teach upon seeing this little kid because i am afterall, a person who demonstrates feelings easily. I want to share this with everyone, this affected me pretty much: http://www.ourfeistyprincess.com/
I shared this with the boyfriend, all he could choked up with was 'this is life'.

Recently, the boyfriend is so packed and exhausted - i want to lessen his burden and make him a happy man like 'Behind every successful man there is a woman'.

Jiahui's 21st;

Ivan's Farewell;

YunnSin's 20th;

Labyrinth of glees

2009-07-05T20:43:00.006+08:00

Finally its into the 2nd week of July and if you've noticed, i've been counting down eversince June and now that it is July, it's certainly something to rejoice about. One thing i need to confess- for the times that i skipped work with sick as an excuse, it happened so often that i wonder if the people see through it but it doesn't matter beacuse i promise myself that this temporary job stint will be my last that i'll do all these.

This week had been an awesome one with celebrations and meeting up. I got to spend almost the whole Saturday with the boyfriend, it had been long since we've done that. And for the many times that i told him i wanna movie marathoned when we get to spend time like this, i will always be the one who dozed off halfway through the night with the occasional peeps to make sure i am still watching without catching red-handed by the boyfriend. However, the boyfriend always saw through it by checking out on me at intervals, probably because i'd gone all quiet or my hands had slipped off his. Basically, i am a happy girl.
Can't seem to upload peektures in blogger right now, will get it done soon(:

I hope life is this simple that i do not demand as much.

It has always been you

2009-06-29T18:20:00.003+08:00

If there's one thing I need to comment on the boyfriend. He is ever so patient with me and never loses his cool even if he's feeling down. But it's always not the case for me because i am hot headed and loses it easily. We've both grown much together in the years and sure, we will grow stronger everyday as the vague route gets by. I am glad i have you B.

you know you love me xoxo
and i love you too(:

Laugh hard like you've never been before

2009-06-27T20:46:00.003+08:00

I've never been a fan of MJ, but i do hear his songs occasionally. And now that radio stations had been airing his songs every now and then in memory of him. I was still wondering what's up with the MJ fever, apparently i wasn't hearing intently to the deejays - blame it on my weak eardrums. It came as a surprise when i read an article on his death - he was 50, preparing to make a comeback for 50 shows and now he is gone. Well...people do come and go. However, the speed intervals involved is often too fast for us to grasp hold of. Remember Heath Ledger, the guy who played the joker, his came as a shock too. You never know when you will be gone but till that day comes, let us care a little more for our loved ones and spread little joys around to show them your love and inject laughter to their life. Because every little now makes a memorable look back from then.

On a side note, everyone are so busy with their work and school while i am left out, all here by myself. I am literally wandering free, even during work and i would start harrassing people on my contact list, starting from the wonderful boyfriend to dearest my friends. I am very restless, i need to occupy myself every single minute. But on the occasional times, i still need some me-time alone - not that much. I love spending time with the people i love, i'll never get bored in their presence; especially with the boyfriend.
Well...i do sense that eversince he is posted to the current camp, he is totally exhausted from everything he does. It may not be the ideal situation you would want to get caught up in but all i have to say is hold on there because the dark is brightening up soon. And i'll be here just like you were there with me at my lowest point(:

Cheer up my boy((:

I can reach out high above

2009-06-23T20:50:00.005+08:00

I've been missing out to fill in some updates because i am worn out almost at the end of each day which i choose to seek comfort on my bed and snug up to watch Gossip Girl. This is what i've been doing every other weekdays. It had been a routine coming back from work but things will be different once work is out and school is in. Well..this certainly is something to look forward to. July is going to be a busy month with much celebrations to anticipate, enrolment for SIM and the last month of work. July...please be nice because i will be(:

Sunday;Water Fest @ Marina Bay

Friday @ Swensens;

Moment of inertia

2009-06-15T19:54:00.004+08:00

It's 1 and a half more months to school and yes, i cant wait for it to come true. Never got the intention to post once in a blue moon because i am dead beat almost everyday, even though all i do at work is eat and talk, of cause accompanied by some work done. Weekends are burnt with trainings and every Saturday is the opening of torture chamber where i got my butt an abrasion. I haven't been shopping with the boyfriend because at the end of the day (for weekends), we would both switch to hibernate mode and weekdays are always a no no- the boyfriend knocking off late and hardworkingly training for poly50. Let's hope July is a better month, given that the GSS is still on by then and the big day to make a big HOO HA about.

PS: I know my post is getting a tad boring, will have more upcoming pics -if there are. Ciao!

My hopeful down to the drain

2009-06-10T19:37:00.003+08:00

I'm caught in a dejected mood now, call me out of sorts or heartsick; it don't matter. I've got back my lappy a moment ago because it died out on me a couple of days back. I've been holding onto the hopeful that no reformatting will be done but the hopeful turns out to be hopeless. There it goes;all those precious photos which i hold dearly and information that i stored from ages ago are all gone in a POOF! I really dreaded this day to come, i couldn'[t get a backup copy because my lappy gave no warning signals. Well, i can only retrieve those pictures posted in my blog. I need time to digest.

This is what i called true bliss

2009-06-03T20:34:00.003+08:00

I want someone who shares with me the every big and small things that happen in his life. The kind of warmth and closeness can only be felt through such communications. The happy, the sad, the hilarious, the interesting; of all sorts. We will share woes together, laugh together and cuddle each other. Only then, we are entwined into each other's life and true emotions can be shared along the route.

Open your heart and let me in.

Strawberry shortcakes

2009-06-01T19:22:00.011+08:00

Spongebob loves Patrick((:

Last week was cosying up with Zak and the usual trainings with the girls. It had been quite sometime since she is available to actually meet but only me & yunnsin were free for it. Well...more meet ups after the june races, the girls inclusive. The boyfriend is back from his 5 days trip and it sure feels incredibly fast, the moment i stop to think what day it is; it's already the month of June now. And yes, the letter came and i'll be starting school in August if nothing comes in the way. I'll soon be adapting to new environment - anewteam, anewschool, anewdirection, holding onto the usualfriends, ex-belovedteammates & the dearestboyfriend.

Some things in life are simply irreplaceable.

Stupid acts in the office

Ben&Jerry's

Stuff from the trip;

Patrick says Hi to Adidas(:

Hard to please, that's me

2009-05-27T18:31:00.002+08:00

The boyfriend left for taiwan (a fun trip) today and it seems to be back to the old days when he went for his field camps. This time round, he didn't mention love you and take care of these sorts, instead, he mentioned enjoy yourself. This is the intriguing thing about human, you react differently to the same scenerio with different agenda.
I'm going to coma into my intensive reading programme while the boyfriend is away. Only then I can search for my true self and start things refreshed. I hope. Seriously, i know i can be a real pain in the ass at times. Thank you D, for not screaming right in my face.

The hideous side of a being can turn real ugly.

I fear to say goodbye

2009-05-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

Taking last minute leave is so me nowadays because i've been holding onto the no work attitude almost everyday. One thing to look forward is the amount of time I would chat up with my partner and the occasional reads now that workload had lighten. I used to and had been complaining to the boyfriend eversince I started work and now that things turn alittle bit better, I still do the occasional whine. Most of the time, the boyfriend is kind enough to entertain my repeated bitter grumbling. Now that life comes to a standstill for me, I am feeling restless almost everyday, seeking for interesting hideouts every now & then. Ironically, the boyfriend is extremely weary for now.

1. I am waiting for the right time to travel to Hongkong, Bangkok, Bali, Redang & Perth (if YS aunt allows us to bunk in)
2. Had been pondering how long more will I receive the acceptance letter
3. Been spending alot of time bunking in with the boyfriend for downloaded movie marathons
4. Pestering the boyfriend to watch Own Time Own Target
5. Harping on the idea to take up diving and wakeboarding (Provided if the girls are free)
6. Looking forward to every weekends rowing
7. Massive mindless thinking
8. Hoping to visit the pet farm with the boyfriend soon to view the husky again 9. Wonders how life would be when school starts & ORD for the boyfriend
10. Drill myself to bake soon

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A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.
The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.
When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.
What do you think were the four words?
The husband just said "I Love You Darling"
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behaviour. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.
Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.
If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, and unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.
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'I miss your touch on my face & kiss on my lips everytime you bid goodbye'

The light to show us the way

2009-05-13T21:03:00.003+08:00

Because I know at the end of the day, your presence means the whole world to me...like it'd always be;then,now & forever

The good intention led astray

2009-05-12T20:01:00.004+08:00

Have you ever thought of someday, someone you trusted and loved so much would actually lie to you, even if its a white lie. A lie is ultimately a lie, white lie do not exist in my dictionary. If it does happen, of course, I will not be mad but it sure will leave me with a heavy heart; pumped with indescribable amounts of sorrows. I've always believed honesty is no doubt the best policy because we should be righteously truthful to the ones we loved most. It takes trust with mutual understanding and patience to deal with such matters. Is there no other better alternative to handle the matter at hand at that point of time?
However in grieve I am, it'll probably takes time to heal and what's left of the wound would be a scar deeply inscripted. This is how unfathomable things can get.

Good intention can lead to a wreck if not handled with the wisest move.

On a side note, I am starting to read again;a good sign. My previous read was Twilight and Edward and Bella no doubt, display their fervour love for each other through it all. Maybe love like these do exists, somewhere on the other end of the rainbow.

'All I wanted was to love him as much as possible in the limited time given to me'

I failed to try

2009-05-05T22:27:00.003+08:00

For the couple of days i did not mange this post, the unexpected came. I met my malay bf (bestfriend/boyfriend) i mentioned about in my earlier post and it was couple of weeks from now already. I've been unable to cough out this incident for who-knows-why. But it really caught me off guard when i was so tired, dragging my feet home, not to mention - lugging a few ntuc bags because i went grocery shopping. Total unglam i know. While waiting for the green man at the junction, someone tapped me and a familiar sight caught me in surprise. We exchanged a few words but all the while, i was answering his questions but not the other way round.
He asked why I look so shocked as if a stranger was striking a conversation with me. In fact, i was stunningly dazed, i have so much to catch up with him but so little time at that moment. Yes..i was rather flabbergasted. And when the red man turns green, it was goodbye and i did not even ask for his contact number. Partly because I am still dazing and that had not come across my mind. Gosh...what was I thinking. Well, he changed - a plumber version but still, his looks were there. Yes...people do change and how i wish i could talk to him a little longer and have him as my best friend again.

A taste to my palate

2009-05-03T21:37:00.005+08:00

I wake up every other weekends hoping all these would not fade away but it doesn't prove to be. It is always displeasing to realise all the fun are gone in a poof and the next thing you know, tomorrow is Monday. Why this tormenting reality, maybe we should all consider a 4 day work week instead? And hello letters, when will you all be arriving at my mailbox? I need an answer soon.

Friday is Labour Day, had a little catching up and the boyfriend's stayover with a 2 movies marathoning - surprisingly i managed to stay up till the wee hours. I am so in love with the public holidays lately beacause I get to break the trend of the once-a-week routine with D(: It is May now and someone is happily going to taiwan soon;go fast and come home fast aiights? You will be missed!

01/05/09

03/05/09

Time to get those lazy, lumpy legs to kick off.

Some sidetracking will do the trick

2009-04-28T19:33:00.005+08:00

It is already the last week of April and I am still floating about in my aimless life. Wait, maybe not so aimless because I am waiting for acceptance letters to come in so I can plan my next step. I am not being myself lately because I slumbered into my bed so early that I have no time to go online, to blog, to chat with my dear friends and to even watch the tee-vee. I sure feel awake the next day but an unfulfilling one, something is amiss, I'm not using my time right. All these cause me to develop a restless mind and turning into a worrywart where I worried what I am doing now is unhealthy because I have not been reading, watching tv, having my late nights - my day is not filled but replaced with sleep. In turn, I feel unhappy most of the time and became sensitive or overly, you may put it that way - picking up quarrels with D when both of us are tired. I have to stop reading so much into things because it is destroying me soon. I reckon I am suffering from some depression; maybe. I abhor it this way - TOTALLY.

On a lighter note, I've got a task to do - helping my dad to review a book 'Our Iceberg Is Melting', due on Thursday. In the mean while, it is time for some backtracking of pictures.

Supposed to be her last day but was made an unofficial one and costs me an over-priced $3.50 daisy because the boss wants to retain her for who knows how long.

16th April was loved because we managed to catch up abit after so long(:

Prep Camp was short but nothing beats having good company.

Ciao...some good read for now. I hope it is.

Every stretch gets better

2009-04-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

Loving those imperfections can get real tough.

That is when these four words come along.

Certain subjects are left unsaid

2009-04-12T21:59:00.005+08:00

Is it always true when you know a person inside out and outside in, that it makes you take them for granted and treat them so sluggishly awful. But when it spells trouble, that is the moment you would hold that person dearly and never let them go? I wouldn't want to treat my loved ones this way because I believe I only live once and I will do my utmost to love them wholely with my heart. Neither do I want to be treated this way.

I am holding on dearly with what I have.

Sometimes I'd cry myself to sleep.

Maybe everything will end as soon as it begins.

The ticking keeps going

2009-04-06T22:01:00.006+08:00

It is 3 months away and i am counting down to the day when school sets in with work definitely out. I certainly don't feel at my best whenever i begin my daily routine, heading to work because having desk bound from 8.30am-5.30pm with something i dread to do, totally turns me off. Not to mention that the pay is a tad miser- well, what else to expect when recession comes knocking.

Money seems to be on everyone's mind now and the art of survival is hardly practised here in our small island because it is almost impossible to. Prices and fares are hiking like nobody's business even though there are the occasional sales and discounts every now & then. Here i am, trying hard to load up more in order to save my parents some hassle.
Soup Spoon @ Bugis;

Gala Premiere 'The Sniper';

The sweetest little thing

2009-03-26T19:50:00.011+08:00

First thing first, i am totally drained from the late sleep last night with the early wake up this morning at 5.45am. But one thing i love is i get to be with the girls and also the boyfriend on a weekday;it had been long eversince who knows when.

The boyfriend is getting younger (uhm...older) each year and he's 22 now. He is not excited but i am VERY because it means another happy occasion to be celebrated. As usual, my surprise didn't end up to be one when i have to reveal my motive and since it was an unexpected one, i didn't make up a fuss;i hope. It was sweet to see the boyfriend smile widely like a child getting an ice popsicle as a reward. It warms up my heart to have him that way.

ERPs and taking the wrong route, adding in the tiredness, can really spice up everything in the wrong way. Please go away and not be a spoil spot. Wells, i had a great time and hope the boyfriend did too(:

You are loved everyday.

Of the word Desperado

2009-03-19T19:58:00.013+08:00

It was just yesterday i catch up with my bff and despite the distance and time we've got for each other now, nothing changes. We throtted down the streets of orchard and had our typical whiny small talks. We'd even be in the same university in the months to come, not a big hoo-ha though, afterall it feels comforting to have a familiar face.

Its thursday and let me do the counting; i haven't been exactly running since last sunday. I am beginning to feel disgusted just looking at my cellulite filled thighs and bulging tummy. These are totally unglam-ness. I really need to instill some discipline because eating is always easy but working out is a chore;NOW. I don't want to end up bagging those hideous thighs, arms & tummy.

Full House @ Fareast;

We're paid to do these;

I want to have Bolt's legs to carry me long & fast

Let the amusement rolls in

2009-03-16T21:40:00.003+08:00

A pair of listening ears to hear me rant.

A pair of sturdy hands that will keep me safe & loved.

A warm hug that will calm all emotions away.

A sensual kiss to make my troubles flow away.

An affectionate smile to brighten up my day.

And a simple note to say...

"I'll be the star when time sway"

Sometimes i want to believe nothing is impossible, it doesn't get any close to reality - for me. I am trying hard to attain that belief and undeniably, it requires great faith, hope and risks to reach that attainment. Until the day i part from this earth, i will go through trials and errors to reveal the secret to it. Well, at least i try.

I am extremely pleased to own this Canon Ixus 95 IS because i am quite into photography now, just for the amusement. And not to mention, my bro & i were given a SLR Canon 6 yrs camera by my uncle, more experimenting to be done. Pictures posted will be either be taken by SLR or Ixus. Yes..i am intigued by all these.

This is Kelly;my new found friend and she's gonna stay, hopefully till i leave(:

The one thing that will never cease

2009-03-09T20:57:00.003+08:00

Have you ever wonder what the world will come to when there is no love? I guess everything will be colorless, lifeless and monotonous. People will dig into morbidness and would probably kill each other, let alone hurl at each other for the slightest matter. Everyone will experience happiness and satisfaction in unpleasant and sadistic ways. And when love comes along, it will soothe almost all situations and that is when pure bliss kicks in. Let's spread a little love around and every little corner will be pumped with colors.

The weekends appear to be shorter than before and when it comes to monday, it is always the blues. For me, it is back to work and no matter how i dread it so much, i still have to make my way there. Not to mention work is much more fun now with my new found friends - probably not for any longer given that they have a week or so left. I have to consantly remind myself i am half way there till schooling starts.

The past week was ups and downs but ended up fantastic - friends, loved ones and the boyfriend. Everything came to an end at the Singapore Flyer; the company was great, food was sumptuous, scenery was gorgeous and the boyfriend is loved.

Glow in the blue

2009-03-01T14:59:00.004+08:00

This shall mark my first post in March and i am pretty much thrilled that school is going to start in August. But till then, i've yet to know where i am enrolled in and the boyfriend is going to ORD too. I can only say time is way too fast, not to mention noticing the minutes tick by. Somehow my trip to redang flop becuase it was quite expensive and i'll just have to save it for later. March will be filled with activities- career & education fair, IT fair, SIM open house, course seminar, MR500 and of course, the boyfriend's Big O Day.

Lately, i've chanced upon this article 'Flaws' in CLEO and i reckon it is so true. Afterall, i am still in the trying to get rid of the Mr Perfect thought and live with the boyfriend's flaws. Ultimately, everything will be bearable when it comes to love, even if your other half did some unglam actions publicly - picking nose, shoving out his stucked underwear, picking pimples and smelling it (had actually seen this), etc. All in the name of the mighty conquerer.

I made these myself, delicious aye(:

I breed sluggishness in me

2009-02-17T21:09:00.007+08:00

I am quite washed down with the current slothful me. Because i haven't been running for at least twice a week, haven't been updating the blog, haven't been facebooking, haven't been baking (except for Vday), haven't been reading and haven't been too keen to apply for university entrance (leaving till the last minute). I only seek comfort infront of the television and on my bed straight after work. And i swear if i am going to lead this kind of lifestyle, i am so going to be piling up those cellulites and ending up being a 'fei mei'. The idea of being fat with a huge tummy frightened me so much that i'd rather go aneroxic and seek help from Marie France. Then again, i am not directing at anyone. I would seriously swear by those facial and bodycare products, understanding that constant basking under the sun does serious damages when i age. Give me some motivation and fervor to push myself over my limit, anyone?

Valentine had just pass and it was a great deal of fun to be grocery-shopping with the boyfriend and whipping up seafood baked rice and rosti with sausages with him. His mum would be rather glad that we din't burn down her kitchen. A simple affair brings the best for both of us and i wouldn't trade anything for that moment.

Give me a dose of magaritas

2009-02-04T21:36:00.007+08:00

Hello Mr Blogger, it is time to revitalise you now because i admit i had been neglecting you so often. So much things to keep track of and i am seriously lost. All i hope for is to successfully get enrolled into a school and study. I am not criticising that work ain't good but it is rather mundane to be desk bound and i could not stand the hours super glued to my seat. Not something to brag about how fun and inviting it is.

CNY have been awesome with some catching ups and getting angbaos but the tinge of festive mood is nowhere to be found - at least for me. Right now, im seeking comfort in my space, feeling groggy and waiting for the boyfriend's reply due to 1. his cell has no battery or 2. he is locked up in camp. The feeling of detachment is so torturing because i have a friend who will be away sailing for a good 6 weeks, leaving his gf right here in this island. So i am considered blessed enough ay?

When economy is heading towards the dump site, parents are still debating over which junior colleges or polytechnics is the best and comparing their child's results. For goodness sake, count themselves lucky that they have a place to even study. Because i couldn't stand those aunite(s) in the office discussing and debating over it, almost everyday. This is insane.

Life is this hard when it has come to a point where there is no sizzle to it and remians so stagnant. Well, i promise to live my life as much as i would want it to be or at least make the effort to.

Starbucks @ Jp;

Haven't you notice the time?

2009-01-24T22:55:00.013+08:00

Let me announce - the blog is so dead for this once. I haven't got the time to/lazy/just can't be bothered to be on my lappy. Wells, the lunar new year is coming and it is not much of a thing for me;at least for the boyfriend, it is. This year will be dead boring (most of my relatives are overseas) and with minimal angbaos, how interesting can it gets?

Shopping for CNY clothes over the past one week was insane, human congestions everywhere and i could hardly get to shop at peace. The boyfriend claims that it's okay if i don't get new clothes because i literally get them every month so it makes no different if it's for the new year. Alright, i have to admit he hit the bull's eyes.

I've finally done something that i've always wanted, which is to get a tattoo. The boyfriend accompanied me to Johnny2thumb @ Fareast. I was screaming inside because the pain is excruciating and during the process, i was clenching my hands together with eyes tightly closed, squeezing every drops of tears that i had. A sense of satisfaction overwhelms me when the session was done. But wait, the tattooist uncle (meng tat) was great, tinge of humor and very chatty with good skills. I feel kind of stupid to ask if there is numbing cream before the session begins. Please don't laugh because i am a person who is afraid of needles okay.

Reunion dinner was held early today at my aunt's house. Dishes weren't too tasty this year though but it's all about gathering. Tomorrow shall be dining at my grams and lunching out with the girls. Let's look forward to CNY:)

Some overdue pictures.

23/1/09 - Orchard with the boyfriend and mummy

Suan acting cute!

Pineapple making process

He got a ear piercing. She got a tattoo.

Stranded in my coop

2009-01-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

Age has definitely taken its toll on me. No? My muscles are screaming at me after the training on Saturday and i choose to believe it is me not training as regularly but not the former. It feels like i am back to year 1 in poly when my body will ache so much that i can't even straighten my arms, not to mention raise them above my head. My thighs would hurt so badly like they had been punched a hundred times repeatedly and the minute i start to walk the stairs, my legs would start to wobble. And the minute i try to sit on a chair, i have to press on the sides and place my miserable buttcheeks in place.
For today, i can hardly reach for things above my head and opening the usual office door has suddenly becomes a chore for me. I need some comfort food - dark chocolates, strawberries & cheeries. I realised how muddle-headed i can get; in haste on Sunday stayover at the boyfriend's, i left my glasses behind and it costs me a trip to Tampines today. On a lighter note, it gives me a good excuse to see him. Alright people, more updates and picture posts on my next visit:)

He once again slid my ring into place on the third finger of my left hand. Where it would stay - conceivably for the rest of eternity.

Compromise

2009-01-07T21:41:00.003+08:00

He looked up at me through his impossibly long lashes, his golden eyes soft but, somehow, still scorching. "I promise to love you forever - every single day of forever. Will you marry me?"
There were so many things I wanted to say, someof them not nice at all, and others more disgustingly gooey and romantic than he probably dreamed I was capable of. Rather than embarrass myself with either, I whispered, "Yes."
"Thank you," he said simply. He took my left hand and kissed each of my fingertips before he kissed the ring that was now mine.

A thousand thoughts are screening through my mind now and i've yet to examine them individually. I need to hold every single one of them in place - prim & proper. There are so much to say while it takes ages to execute them;i hope i can accomplish as much as i can. Somehow, i wish for the existence of a 'emotion controller' so that i can use it to control my over-sensitive nature. Yes...i am a 'kan cheong spider', who goes around worrying alot and venting irrationally. I can't help it. I don't mean it. I am sorry if I do hurt you.

I'll take it from here

2009-01-05T21:09:00.006+08:00

This is a rather late post for the year 2009 because i haven't got the fervor to write a post. I hate to think i am growing so fast each time a year passed and when december finally comes, i will be officially a year older. It is such a dread to hit the 20s and yes, i must surrender to reality. On a lighter note, 21 is the legalised age and i am finally legal; well, at least when december comes.

I've been yearning for this year because i'll soon get to hit the books again and head back to school. After surviving the working society for almost a year, this is certainly something to anticipate. I hope Huiqi will be taking up the same course as me so i won't be a lone soul like some freshies as how i once were in poly.

It had been awhile that i noticed how my plans to do something, would somehow flop and it has since become a habit. It certainly feels not right to plan something and 'POOF!' it disappeared. I want to make 2009 a decisive and executing year...perhaps this is my re-solution.

31/12/08 - Vivo;

02/01/09;

I am a fairytale girl.

I want to live happily ever after.

Certified true copy

2008-12-29T19:05:00.006+08:00

I am high on my current squeeze and it is making me head over heels. And i found myself pleading for more time grants but time isn't that compromising. My squeeze had taken up most of my last days in 2008 and depleted me the enthusiasm to blog & post and also to ignore the boyfriend for the moment. My squeeze - they are so much nicer to indulge in when i am left all alone, nevertheless, i still indulge in them whenever i can and where ever i am. Yes, they were sure addictive because i fell in love with them - totally. Maybe i should slow down and savour the pages - "But how could you believe me? After all the thousand times I've told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me?"..."I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn't want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept- as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!"

Carnivores @ Vivo - xmas brunch;

New year eve in 2 days time and i can't wait for more celebrations to kick in. I need more happy pills before i am stuck among huge piles of books again. I've been a disappointment to fulfill my new year resolution so i've decided there will be none for me this year. Well, get ready for the new year everyone. Hello 2009!

Not with this age

2008-12-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME(:

I had it spent with my love ones. I love everyone of them.

My boy((:

The Arena on Friday;

Unglam with tissue stuck under the heels while dancing;

A monochrome of black and white

2008-12-18T00:14:00.002+08:00

It is past midnight now and this is by far a late timing for me to turn in. I can't snuggle up in my bed because i miss the boyfriend. Although i do complain and being a pain in the ass sometimes, i do feel something amiss right now. I am indulging in the movie 'Twilight' again and again on the net and it doesn't help abit in diverging my thoughts. It simply made me more depressing.
I went to the bookstore in search of the twilight book series and they were all snapped up in like 3 days (I just got the first book on Sunday and it's only Wednesday a few minutes ago). I placed an order for the remaining three books and has no idea when will they be stocked up. I seriously need some good reads that well enough, catch my attention.

I cannot think properly right now beacause i am so indulged in the characters of Twilight and it has become 'my brand of heroin'. I secretly think i'm morbid, the fact that i indulged in melancholy and seek comfort in depressing songs, movies and books. The more melancholic, the better. Is there an explanation to all these? Maybe i am hard to fathom. Or there's something wrong with me.

When will twilight come alive?

2008-12-14T16:40:00.016+08:00

Everything gradually settles in for this week and i am rather glad it did. Because december is suppose to be a joyous month i reckon. I made a hasty decision to have a haircut for 22 bucks but it is apparently not much different because i wanted to keep it long so i'll just have to give it a trim only. Oh nevermind, i've always been this hasty and fickle when it comes to doing certain things.

Yesterday was watching 'Twilight' with the boyfriend and i am totally hooked onto it. I am totally loving this vampire romance, i am a sucker for all these while the boyfriend may not be. Probably i secretly wishes that all these are part of my life when they are actally some unrealistic happenings. And i am absolutely into Robert Pattinson. Check him out.

Friday;dinner with the girls & coach

Sunday;New York New York

Forever means to spend my life time with you.

Withdrawal unapproved

2008-12-08T19:45:00.008+08:00

Slumbering with the boyfriend accompanied by the cold rain and moist air, it is the perfect cue to a sweet moment. Rainy season, though dampens avid shoppers, at the same time brings in the comfort to stay in and have a good movie marathon with popcorns, chips, hot cheese nachos, hot chocolate, fluffy pillows and of course, with good companions. Let's just have a wonderful, rainy and wet Christmas this december without the snow.

I hope I can stop being such a disappointment to you time & again.

Friday @ Orchard;

Sunday - Standard Chartered 10k @ 1.13hr, it was certainly an accomplishment to beat our previous timing. Zak is my best running and gym khaki; more mileage to clock. This time, i really had to bid farewell to my running shoe because the whole sole is gonna come off soon with all those gyms and runnings to come. Maybe i'll maximise it till the soles come off and feed it to the bin. This will always be the last resort because i can't bear to part with it.

He held me so tight in his arms. I was gasping for air but I felt his warmth & love. This is how he expresses, a hug unveils his unspoken emotions.

Cute, is he?

2008-12-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

Browse me thoroughly

2008-12-02T22:12:00.014+08:00

Everyone's into the first week of december. Excited? Dismay? To me, there're much to rejoice and yet reminisce. Welcoming the new year isn't that awful; afterall a new year equates to a new chapter. I start to relate my lifespan to a storybook, i am almost done with the 20th chapter. My book will be a real thick one, not hoping it will be filled with suspense but a simple fairytale ending and at the end of the day when i flipped back, i can recollect all my stories.

Lately, i've been an introvert or maybe i am really lazy to simply step out of the office and walk to the canteen which is 50 steps away to lunch with my colleagues. Because i am lunching in quite often, it makes a perfect reason to savour and read the papers at my desk. I need a moment of time alone too.

Me & my mum ended at El Patio @ Holland V on friday when she called me & suggested going to HV for dinner when we're just supposed to have pratas nearby our area. Poor dad picked us up after filling our stomach and supper for him was just char siew baos.

Cedele @ Velocity on saturday;

Mingles- eat all you want ice cream buffet;

him: 16-18 scopes, me: 9 scopes i think;

I hope you are sweet, december

2008-11-26T20:59:00.005+08:00

Hi December, it is less than a weeks' time. One year ago at this period, rejoiced with a medal in Regatta, mugged real hard at home, december holidays and down with an illness. One year later, here i am, another Regatta down, no longer mugging, no more holidays and i recovered. In a flash of a ligthning, this is how everything behaves. I am pretty excited for the new team, however differences are inevitable and will certainly surface. Clash of the Titans.

The boyfriend, after a long break not having to stay in, finally got his imprisonment again. More field camps to come, something i'd always abhor since the day he shaved his head botak. Staying in means no more tv and computer for him, no more talking as freely as i want in the night. Good or bad? I felt pretty guilty when i compared the boyfriend's bank book and mine. It was a far cry. Maybe it is time i should inherit the habit to save. I ran as far as my legs could carry. It led me to somewhere.

Nice shorts, zak(:

Home alone tonight

2008-11-22T21:56:00.008+08:00

My life is a bleak now that i have no idea what is going to happen next and with the fickleness in me, i'll probably won't make up my mind on certain stuff. There're so much to say and to do but often, i would stop to ponder so much that it'll take forever to realise those things. Maybe burying myself with intensive trainings, studying and reading will keep my thoughts away for the time being. Will you understand if i confide?

Let me introduce this dog who brightens up my day although i shun her everytime she comes near me because i am afraid it will lick me and drip saliva on me. Her name is girl girl, she is the boyfriend's aunt's dog. One thing i'll never forget was when she got so excited and humped on the boyfriend's leg once. I was at the boyfriend's on thursday and i suggested to walk the dog while waiting for someone to pick me up. She got so excited and span around with glee. No doubt, she peps my day(:

A jellyfish changes its color like I do

2008-11-17T21:15:00.013+08:00

It is 1 month 5 days to my birthday and 1 month 9 days to Christmas. December is my beloved because it is the month of my birthday, it spells the end of the year, it is a season of sharing & giving and it is the monsoon period where wet cooling days are due to set in. It sure feels dramatically hasty at how i am going to be 1 year older, how year 2009 is soon to be history, how me & the boyfriend had come this far (many years to come still), how everything has settled in for me and how people come and go.

After a duber long weekend, it is time to hit the piles on my working desk; more sit-ins which i abhor. I would always do some improper sitting positions to fidget in my seat but hecked it because no one would bother to see the unglam side of me. And i just got started on my japanese class last tuesday - aunties and students;i've yet to study for a spelling for tomorrow. It sure brings me back to the good old days in primary school when i studied hard for each spelling to score a perfect 100. Maybe not now. Will it?

I've yet to do a little shopping for people who matter the most to me. How will Christmas do without a christmas list and gifts right? Here is my list, it would probably take a century to own them.

1. Dolce & Gabbana ring

2. Tiffany & Co charm bracelet

3. Kate Spade bag

4. A closet full of clothes

5. A rack filled with footwears

6. Actually, anything that are given to me, i'll like it(:

All it matters is the thought that counts. I love the idea of pressies, be it big or small, cheap or pricey because i love receiving it, as well as giving it out. The smile that often displayed, is pure genuine happiness and makes me smile too. I am now planning on the gifts with a budget. Well, maybe my baking skills will come to use at this point of time.

Underwater World;

My splurges of the month;

Pasta Mania @ TM;

This dog is cute though i shun when it comes near me;

Mystery man in my dreams;

Stay with me until my heart stops beating

2008-11-12T22:34:00.003+08:00

When i was still a kid, i thought my mum to be a nuisance because all she'd ever did was nag and hit. Now, i've come to realise all she'd intended was to protect me and embrace me right from the beginning. She is always the first to share my woes and happiness, she gave her all to be right by my side when i needed her and when i mentioned by my side, it meant literally.

However, i don't deny she get on my nerves at times and my tone would always be harsh. Certainly, it does hurt. Many a times, i just want to say 'I am sorry, mummy. I love you'. My ego often robs me of these simple words. And if there comes a day when she's no longer around, i would not know what to do because she's the one i love...then, now and forever. It won't change. Can i keep her with me even after i pass on?

There're so much i want to do for and with her. I want to give her the best that i can provide, just to see a smile across her face. Time is an issue and how long more will i be able to lavish her with all these - 4 years? 10 years? Her pressence matters more than anyone else because she's my primary source of motivation. Yes, i love her dearly.

There is a mask behind everything

2008-11-09T20:44:00.011+08:00

It is 2 weeks' time to Regatta and this is the worst ever feeling that i am caught with, for the whole 3 years when the race was always nearing. I can't help but insists this upcoming event is insignificant anymore, the once held esteem of it are all gone. Probably the change made everything seems different - teamwork, discipline, trainings, people. The pictures stored, now exude those beautiful memoirs i once held on so tightly and even till now.

My extremely long-distant relatives are coming to my hometown in 2 days' time and i've yet to play host to them. I cannot really think of any fascinating places besides the usuals. Any suggestions? Playing host means i have to sacrifice 2 days of unpaid leave but on a lighter note, it means no work and free time. Work had been far much better as compared to the previous;stress-free environment with friendly people.

The amount of time to download the pictures in each of my entry is consuming too much time and many a times, i haven't got the patience to wait and laziness always sets in. I realise my blog had become a food-peekture blog. Here it goes(:

Anthony's Birthday;

Late lunch at MOF Marina;

Tumbler with loves;

It doesn't matter if the sun don't shine anymore

2008-11-03T21:20:00.011+08:00

It is palpitating to know how soon year 2008 is going to end. Hello 2009? I am not prepared for this transition because it means there will be changes - people growing older, society changing, standard of living getting higher and as for me, time to make concrete plans. The plan now is to get myself drowned in those huge piles of notes and unceasing lectures in the coming year.

Happy Birthday Anthony Tan! You won't be able to read this because you are unaware of the existence of this blog. It was celebrated in advance on Saturday at Hanabi Japanese Restaurant. I can say the sashimi were superb and we had about 10-12 plates of the mix platter. However, due to the shortage of manpower, service was damn slow. After dinner, headed down to Dempsey for Ben & Jerry and my mum, as usual made us all laugh with her silly act.

Footprints in the sand

2008-11-01T12:41:00.003+08:00

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the sky and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life had flashed before him,he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his life there was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,you'd walk with me all the way.I don't understand why, when I needed you most,you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious child.I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints...
That was when I carried you."

Talking about the blues

2008-10-27T20:17:00.009+08:00

Monday today certainly don't feels too blue because it is a public holiday which means i get to escape from work. However, things like these aren't going to be standstill but i always look forward to what is in plan for me. Lately, i've been screwed up with my messed up behaviour - i am living in parnoia and on the basis of assumptions with some intuitions. It isn't the best thing that could happen on me because when pesismisim engulf me, im capable of more ridiculous stuff. All these have to be stopped somehow. Seriously, i need to grow up. Everyone is saying hello to recession now but somehow, it don't hit me and i've been spending fervently. They are 2 dresses, a new cell phone and pleasure eats this week. I hope i learn the art of saving because im so caught up right now.

Tuesday @ Hot Tomato Express PS

Saturday @ Shokudo Cineleisure

The stayover & chinatown

The greatest paradox

2008-10-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

"We still have fun. Spontaneous good times. Yesterday, after flipping the rubber band off the rolled-up newspaper, he flipped it playfully at me: this led to all-out war. Last Saturday, while at the grocery store, we split the list and then raced each other to see who could gather the required items and make it to the check-out stand first. We've made an art form out of our prepared gourmet dinners, Even washing dishes together can be a blast, We enjoy simply being together.

And there are surprises: surprises in daily living. One time when I came home from work to find a note on the front door. This note led me to another note, then to another, until-many notes later-I was directed to the walk-in closet, I opened the door to find Scott holding a "pot of gold" (my cooking kettle) and the treasure of a gift package. Ever since then, I often leave him notes on the mirror or slip little presents under his pillow."

I guess love eventually lasts with all the small things we deem too little, presented daily for each other. When everyone falls in love, they often wonder, "What will make this love last?" There are no special ingredients to it but comfortable is the key, the rest will follow suit eventually.

True love, is that which can give the most without asking or demanidng anything in return

The lack of rheotorical effect

2008-10-12T19:10:00.010+08:00

My two weeks break unfortunately is coming to an end. Can i hold onto it longer please? Well, maybe not so soon. Not to mention, i had a rewarding 2 weeks all to myself- abundance of hongkong dramas, training and catching up with the girls, exploring singapore with my mum while she's running errands but sadly, i've lost touch with all my reads abandoned at home. It is time to track back those good old days when i'm having intensive reading. Saturday was my dad's birthday and yes, he was especially delighted when we (my brothers and i) got him a watch and a celebration after that.

Ok, i am starting to feel that my posts are rather boring because in life, special events do happen but in rare occasions and all people can do is either rant or share the details of those not so special events in their life. However not so special it may be, all these bits & pieces filled up my life and it's definitely worth sealing it up in the memory lane. There is so much we want to do but at the end of the day, we can only do this much and we tell ourselves "I've already tried my best."

The concrete decision to do something

2008-10-05T21:08:00.020+08:00

I've been asking myself this question"What the hell am i doing right now?" Is this what i seek after graduating from poly and the fact that my chance of getting into a local university is so minimal, i've decided to try my luck again next year. The best alternative is to get my ass in SIM if all else fails. It's been hard for me to face the music in the working life. I hate to see myself out of the student world and being engaged in the complicating working society. Everyone appears to be wolf in sheep's skin. Sometimes, i just wish i could live in self-denial for the rest of my life - to stop studying till i get my Phd, get a rich hubby, run my own business; simply to escape the intense complicated working life.

I dislike the feeling to be intimidated or manipulated by someone;it makes me feel so small, so small that my pressence is not felt. It's similar to that of a dwarf talking to a giant. I've strive to be better when school starts next year because i do not want to be so tiny the next time round when im armed with a higher qualification. In the meantime, my job will be commencing on the 13th. Well, with a diploma and seeking on a short term job, there aren't much options to choose from and im always landed with admin; the most boring job ever!

This week had been nicely spread out with meet-ups and not to forget the boyfriend.

Saturday;Crystal Jade Cafe @ Bugis Street

Sunday; East Coast Park with D & family

Held onto these hands for 2 years & on

The small stuff to sweat about is to embrace each other right from the beginning again because there will never be an end to it.

Saturday with the girls at Modesto's;

Those were the days

2008-09-29T22:03:00.009+08:00

I am having a good time bumming my ass off this week and i took the time to figure out how exactly the boyfriend will apppear to be when he was teleported back in time. Maybe the boyfriend will kill me when he reads this post. The webby: http://www.yearbookyourself.com/

1960

1970

1976

1988;the year i was born and yes, my dad's hair was like this

1994;the typical hongky old school look

I've done enough to the boyfriend, so here's my version. Have a good laugh, peeps(:

1960

1962

1994

All these call for a laughing session because it is retarded. Well, time for some reads and vcds now(:

Frolick with the trend

2008-09-27T21:03:00.026+08:00

Finally, i'm released from hell and being relieved back to heaven - for a week maybe? The week had been rather pleasant with my mum picking me up from work almost everyday and i felt loved for that every moment she picked me up. With the woman behind the wheels, it led to a week of food galore which the boyfriend isn't surprised because it happen just too often. However, it may be a downside for me because i would not want to be addicted to spending on quality food all the time. The fact that i am still a student, the amount i'm earning isn't enough to cover my expenses and savings for studies next year. Eventually, my parents had to fork out the money;when will i ever be independent and not be a daddy's girl? Not so soon i think.

The boyfriend gets to stay out till next wednesday and next week will be engaged with activities. This is indeed a rare opportunity now that the boyfriend is an army boy with his confined army life. For now, let the pictures roll.

Tuesday; not bad to have such food at a coffeeshop

Wednesday;Soup spon @ Paragon

Friday;Robertson Walk for some sapporo ramen

Met up with the boyfriend today, for clothes hunting at Haji lane, with 1 intention in mind: to stock up more vintage dresses and clothes. I'm in love with the vintage and bohemian style; anyone has any place to reccomend? I know one thing for sure is that my jeans are bunking in my wardrobe forever. Goodbye jeans. Hello dresses.

Magic carpets, anyone?

Soup spoon again @ Bugis;

They're creepy with their looks and $240 price tag;

The 2 dresses;

So much had happen and i'm truely glad i have you.

Add a little twist to your own story

2008-09-21T19:59:00.012+08:00

Weekends are caming to a halt - too soon for me to enjoy thoroughly. Once again, i have this tinge of reluntance that the boyfriend will be back in camp again. Anyway, may the upcoming week be smooth sailing for me because Friday will be my last day in that bloody office and that's something to rejoice about. Even Junhong supported my decision to quit because he claims that a leopard can never change its spots and i think it's so true. This has made me to be more affirmative in my decision because a couple of days ago, i was still thinking if i committed a silly mistake. The fact that i was a leader myself makes me think he is a bad one and i don't see myself treating the team like this, if not everyone would just leave. He won't understand and he will never because he will never get a chance to lead a team, not to say manage a person.

I want to make sure that bastard get 1 of the following retributions someday; i cursed that day to come:

1) Die young from his smoking habits

2) Get knock while crossing the road

3) Never get a managerial post...ever!

4) Multiple repeats of his semesters in SIM and delay in getting a degree

5) Get blacklisted in the company he works in

6) Get nasty treatments by someone superior

7) Paralysed for the rest of his life

8) Messy family life that can never be solved (the fact that he has bad relationship with his family)

Sorry but i have to say, i cursed him for the rest of his life.

I skipped rowing today to accompany my dad because he is going to leave tomorrow for a working trip in Malaysia for a week and i am going to miss him. He taught me how to deal with that bastard and he cares. I know if something is going to happen during my work stint in the upcoming week, i have people around me who's going to aid me. Let's just hope nothing happens.

Pictures from Saturday's treat at Korean BBQ restaurant;D's mum birthday((:

Cupid;

The boyfriend cant't be bothered;

Coz he's porn-surfing;

My baby boy(:

You are Blacklisted

2008-09-19T12:48:00.013+08:00

Finally some rest i can have to myself, i am on sick unpaid leave today because i decided not to go to that bloody office and see those vampire-sucking people. I haven't had the time to update because i fell ill ever since the Sava race. Maybe my body is not insync to the lack of sleep with intensive rowing back to back. A couple of months back, i could still handle all these but now it would be a torture. However, i secretly hold onto the past and relish the moments when we trained under the sun almost everyday, even at dusk, we trained, the after-training eats and laughs. It sure feels weird not being part of the team now and i am seeking an identity somewhere in some teams;maybe when Zakiyah graduates in a few months time. SP Alumni someone?

I am going to rant about how bastard my executives are and how 1 of my colleague gets on my nerves for being too overly-friendly (i am happy for the fact that he quitted). My executives made me do a cleaner's job by asking me to clear a desk for another colleague, it was untouched for ages, i reckon because i could breathe in dust. I am glad i've tendered and next friday would be my last day at STARHUB! About my colleague, he started off quite friendly but after some time, his friendliness gets over and irritates me so much that i just can't be bothered.

I wish i can train, play, eat, study & nothing else.
I miss you girls.

Some overdue pictures from Sava to spare, i know my entries are getting a tad too boring. No promise but i wil pep it up soon with interesting reads once i am not so caught up with work.

Walked through with me;

Shiya, you're caught!

At the boyfriend's;

I MISS YOU.

The sum that adds up to nothing in the end

2008-09-07T19:20:00.035+08:00

Fairy tales would often end up in a fairytale ending and live happily ever after but have you ever wondered what happens after the 'live happily ever after'? An everlasting one or just a momentarily one? I've seen enough of heartbreaks and had hearts broken, the indescribable feeling could even turn suicidal for some people. Yes, the impact is adversely great. Everything counts - how the boy met the girl and how the girl met the boy, how they had their honeymoon period in the first few months, how they would always rant to each other when things turn bad, how they would reconcile after a quarrel, how they spent their anniversary together and the little things they did for each other. It takes months to build a relationship yet it takes a few seconds to screw up one. Everything nice would vanish instantly with sadness, emptiness and tears starting to kick in. Frankly, i would not welcome this; not everyone would.

Does pure eternal love really exists?

Even if it does, will you promise an interesting & fun relationship without the typical staleness of a long term one? When everyone is busy in their world of money and status, one would often neglect the simple things in life;probably the gist of a fun-loving relationship. Little gestures do miracles.

Finally some catching up with my poly mates for Friday dinner at Pasta Mania @ Bugis.

*Notice the huge arms & face i have=(

The boyfriend is booking in again, 1 day of fun a week with him is always not enough. Saturday was going to the mint museum which i find it alittle too expensive with the small areas of displays. Actually the boyfriend hinted at the price but im adamant in going so he relented. We went to eat and shop at Bugis, had dinner with his family at Maxwell and off to his friend's birthday while i waited in the car and home sweet home.

The boyfriend's fave Bruce Li;

Iloveeuuubanana.

A serenade to perform

2008-08-31T19:36:00.010+08:00

The week is gonna end in let's say, 5 & a half more hours. This means daily work routines are kicking in and the boyfriend is booking in. I've not been doing much catching ups with anyone and hopefully, the weeks to come, i get the chance to. How i wish i was still tied down with numerous training sessions and spend time with my teammates. Maybe it will come soon - not;because school is only starting next august. There is so much things and places i desire to do and to go (before i turned 30), i've even draft up a things-to-do list in my mind because maybe all these won't happen so soon.

1) To travel overseas with my girl pals and the boyfriend.

2) To take up a new language.

3) To take up new sport activities.

4) To start up an online pastry business with my mum (things are still in discussion).

5) To visit every corners of Singapore with the boyfriend (From flea markets to places of interest).

6) To start a flea market booth with my girl pals.

7) To indulge with a galore of the finest food and shoppings.

8) To get a driving license and get a car of my own.

Well, the brutal truth is money revolves around all these things and for me, they shall gradually materialise because i am not Paris Hilton.

Saturday was staying over for the boyfriend, it has been quite some time though. It's 3 more weeks and he will be set free from his birdcage. Staying in has always been a dread for me & him, let's pray for the positve.

Today i skipped rowing for my beloved aunt who's celebrating an advanced birthday at Red Star Restaurant for some dimsum. This is the usual Hong Kong dimsum hangout for us. We went to Fareast Square for YaKun Toast and headed to the flea market there where my cousin bought a $100+ transformer sets. Just to clarify, he is already 28 this year. Sorry, forgotten about my camera so no pictures. However, to offset this, i have some overdue pictures on wednesday's dining at Tonkichi @ Shaw Towers.

PS: Walle Loves Eva

Little perkies pep me up

2008-08-25T19:06:00.024+08:00

Fun-filled weekends always perk me up from all those monotonous working days that i am having. No doubt i would plan my every weekends packed with activities that when the moment i reached home, i would be drained and knock off on my bed instantly. On the hind side, Singapore can only get this big - enough to explore in 3 days maybe?

Lately, i've been a good girl becuase i sleep and wake up early; earliest to date is 9pm. Ok, you must be wondering what i did to attain it. It was yesterday when i woke up at 5plus in the morning for the Safra run, trained back home for late breakfast and my mum drove ourselves down to rowing in the midst of the rain. It was buying an assortment food for dinner and after that was watching the Olympic closing ceremony accompanied by my dozing off subsequently. This explains everything.

I thought my legs would be screaming at me after the run but it was not so bad. However, my shoes gave way, a flap came off from the sole after running. I do not wish to depart from it beacuse i have gone through thick & thin with it since poly years. I don't want to!

Saturday was night Safari day with the boyfriend, Estee and Fen. We got to see the animals despite the after shower condition. Pictures paints a thousand words, so let them do the talking now.

Notice Fen's face for the following:

A pothole to salvage

2008-08-22T14:49:00.005+08:00

Some time to spare at work now because i've completed my assignments in a bolt over the weeks and with my in-charge not around, i get to sloth abit. It is about 3 hours to knocking off and lethargy is kicking in already. Desk-bound jobs are not my kind because all you do is glue your ass to the seat for the whole day with the occasional walk-abouts. I am getting pretty sick with this job but will be sticking to it for the time being - adapted to the late arrival and early departure routine and a reasonable income.

This morning over breakfast, my mum was telling me a Korean actor who starred in "Coffee Prince" died in a road accident at age 27. My heart sank instantly because it happened so abruptly. One moment, you watched the person on screen, the other moment, he/she is gone. Same goes for heart-throb Heath Ledger. Reality has to be hard and callous; no warnings beforehand - you get hit, injured and fall. Maybe the oracle does exist.

In Loving Memory;

The sun still shines in the sky

2008-08-21T19:44:00.034+08:00

Finally, before laziness & lethargy set in, i must update an entry. Apparently, my blog is dead and my brain is dead once i get home everyday because i haven't had the time to put up an entry - not even a short one because the last few days were literally packed. Not to say, i don't even get to slouch into my comfort zone for some good read;i'm yearning for that day to arrive.

Everything at work was settling in, nothng impressive to brag about. But wait, it's only today i found out who was this keropok man who kept shouting "Keropok! Keropok!" in the office after lunch hours - an outside vendor with unlimited keropoks to sell. That's pretty amusing to have this in the office.

My trip to Genting over the weekends was totally great - shopping & eating sprees with the boyfriend. Despite the freeze, we gorged down ice-creams like nobody's business because they were dirt cheap. We went KL for a day, lady's luck not smiling at us because it started to rain heavily. We amde a mad dash in the rain to train down to Berjaya Square - 8 storeys high with an indoor theme park. It is very much like Fareast but a bigger version with a theme park. We had japanese for dinner but not that fantastic because the sushi(s) are the ones that me & my mum could produce. I guess it is not right to whine because it was dirt cheap and still edible. One thing for sure was we had Starbucks & Coffeebean throughout our stay because those were the only cafes. My parents arrived the next day to join us and casino is their game. I tried entering the casino twice at different locations but was asked to produce my IC twice. Yes, i have a kiddish face - the boyfriend reckons. It's not a bad thing afterall.

Breakfast at Coffebean on Day 1;

The cable lines seem so fragile;

The not so fantastic sushi chain;

Illegal sports car racing maybe;

The view at our hotel -Resort;

I swear my heart was ripped out when i sat this;

The mystery man;

RM$38 Bak Kut Teh;

The weekends are nearing and it is back to the old days when the boyfriend was in camp and booking out on the weekends. However, this will only have to last for a month, it is considered to be bearable. Saturday will be Night Safari with the boyfriend, lets just hope he pass his theory test tomorrow and books out on Saturday. I would die for more trips - Penang, Bali, HongKong, Redang, BangKok are already on my list.

Awfully delights

2008-08-04T19:21:00.032+08:00

The weekends were great fun, away from the fast-paced working environment. And it was a 3 consecutive day of quality food sprees for me, at least 2 days for the boyfriend. Somehow i felt the pressure to get things done on time, no longer the good old school days where marks will be deducted if we delay. Lately, i do not have the urge to be on the computer once i got home from work because

1) I've been on the computer from 9.30am-6pm every weekday

2) My inbox at work is always spam with mails

3) I always have to contact via email

4) I have to key in numbers and words everyday

All these emails and computer typing make me see stars and often blur vision with prolong computer sighting. I don't want to be caught wearing a pair of 10cm thick glasses in the years to come.

I skipped rowing on Sunday and went to Desaru off Pengerang in Malaysia with the boyfriend, family & cousin's family. It was an educational one in the fruit farm:
Myth 1: Watermelon is cooling so you should eat more if you're heaty.

Fact 1: In fact watermelon is heaty so you'll better not eat tpp much when you're heaty, try pineapple instead.

Myth 2: The durian 'Mao Shan Wang' is of superior quality than D24.
Fact 2: It is actually a mix breed from D24 so ultimately D24 is still the best.

Then it was a mad rush back to the boyfriend's house and cabbed down to Bugis to look for my parents & cousins for dinner at Ma Maison (Sorry, no pics) and to J.Co for coffee & ice cream to end the week.

Some overdue pictures to share.

Sunday at Desaru;

Lobster feast;

Papaya-like mango;

Friday at Yakiyaki Bo,

Saturday at Ju Shin Jung;

Smiley cupcake from a vendor today at work;

Genting trip with the boyfriend is nearing(:

*Recommended Eats:

"Ju Shin Jung" Korean Charcoal BBQ Restaurant: Try the spicy hotpot

Ma Maison Restaurant: Try the escargots

With double glees

2008-07-28T21:44:00.006+08:00

Nothing beats the weekends but it has to end as soon as it started. Two days in a week to enjoy the things that i don't get to do during weekdays are like 'a teaspoon of honey' - so little yet fulfilling. The thing i'd always look forward to on monday blues is another funfilled weekend. Somehow, i comprehend the rationale behind the cliche saying 'You only live once, live life to the fullest'. Eventually, it's up to us to create the kind of lifestyle we desire and as for me, i am still trying to get the hang of it. At least for now, i am trying to put on my running shoes and hit the track. It has been 2 weeks since i last ran, procrastinations, self-criticisms and uneasyness are pouring in yet i am not doing anything. Maybe because im infected by the letters L & T - lazy & tired. I know i am engulfing myself with excuses but someday, very soon, i'll put on those rusty shoes again. Much had happened and much are going to happen. I proudly declare with glee that all things are turning well. Some overdue pictures here - our 2nd anniversary. Happy Very Belated 2nd Anniversary(:

Impervious to wear & tear

2008-07-19T13:30:00.006+08:00

Here i am updating my entry with the boyfriend by my side - very focused on his PSP. The weekdays were pretty fine and i started work at StarHub on wednesday. I am trying hard to click with all my colleagues because there doesn't seem to be a common topic. Work is a routine to me now, nothing much to anticipate. Things might probably turn out to be better in time to come. It is the time now to revamp my closet and stock up some new clothes because it often gets in the way deciding what to wear each day. I am dying to get back to school soon but i know it will be a long wait. New changes, new environment - learning the art of adapting. I want to camouflage and hide away from all thses changes;i fear most.

An incident happened yesterday that made me think i have such 'nice' colleagues, they leave me in a lurch during lunch hours and asked me to settle lunch on my own while they happily pranced down to Vivo to have their farewell lunch for their boss. At least, have the courtesy to allow someone to bring me out because ultimately, i am new. I can say, the girl's a bitch. This is the first time i've ever use this on someone in all my posts. Well, she is one. This is when i knew i had to be independent and break out from the mummy's girl. Ok, i still am - maybe in time to come too.

Dark Knight, here we come(:

My work space;

When things get bored;

I need ice water to wash me down

2008-07-14T10:45:00.012+08:00

Its the end of the weekends and it sure seems like happy moments sprint off like a 100 metre dash. Sunday was the race and my first time steering in one, i felt pangs of ethusiasm as well as nervous tension, fearing i might collide onto other boats. Yes, it was a close shave for colliding into NUS but the rest went on pretty fine. It all ended well in the minor finals, that's certainly team work executed. I made a mad rush to training after having a quick lunch with the boyfriend and his PSP khaki. At the end of the day, i was literally drop dead. It was all rewarding beacuse i was treated to sashimi at Fish Mart Sakuraya - a fusion of a japanese minimart and restaurant, we got to choose the seafood we wanted at the display and get the chefs to slice it on the spot. It was almost like going to the market, choosing the fish that we want and getting the fishmonger to chop it. All i can say, it is a rather unique but pleasant place to eat in.

The display;

Sea urchin sushi;

Embrace yourself

2008-07-11T09:04:00.017+08:00

Let's face reality, almost every female is using all sorts of methods - diet, exercise, diet pills, slimming centre, to achieve a toner, firmer and slimmer body. How to love our body when all these are evident in the media? Well, human nature are susceptible to influences, hardly anyone would suppress that inner desire. Look at those big girls, we won't wonder in awe, all we'll do is to snigger away. It certainly takes courage to love our body no matter what the sizes and of course, comaparing always don't work. It's time to put on those running gears and head for a nearby park or track.

It's finally the long awaited friday but i'll be spending the later noon till night for tuitions. Tomorrow will be training with the girls and stayover at the boyfriend's. Sunday will be the race and i hope i don't make history colliding into boats.

Monday was cafe cartel day for me because i went late noon with pam & ysat PS then dinner was at Raffles Shopping with my mum(:

Wednesday; Shokodu with the boyfriend, mum & aunt

Take pride to do a huge leap

2008-07-07T11:04:00.026+08:00

Its the attack of the monday again without feeling the blue today. The feeling of lethargic had to flow in everytime i've got nothing to do because i am just picky in getting a job i want. Another interview will be on this wednesday at Starhub, hope i dont screw it up. Friday was birthday celebrations cum farewell cum gathering when the girls were having their once in a lifetime break away from trainings. Saturday was literally staying home with the boyfriend over for an online movie marathon of horror flicks. Sunday was waking up 6am in the morning for the apparently-im-unintersted-event - opening of the sembawang seasport club. Everything was disorganised and i had a free tanning session while waiting to kayak. No pictures of the event because i wasn't too enthsiastic to take with the team. Yes, i need time to adapt.

A matter of the fact - Not?

2008-07-02T11:12:00.004+08:00

Is it a crime to have perspectives to the different things in life?

I would ocassionally have my expectations, which undeniably derives from my perspectives. There is neither a good nor bad, it's because people and media around us create such an influential impact that helps us to distinguish from the good and the bad, from the evil-hearted and the good-hearted, from the sweet things and the not-so-sweet ones. Its too profound to comprehend the nature of beings like us. There's over a zillion of us in the world - different personalities, cultures, races and perspectives. It would probably take forever to study the art of what's going through our great minds.

With the existence of both sexes, it just makes things worst. That was when self-help books and workshops came along, in an attempt to improve the lives of us. No doubt, i confess i am a slave to these books. Apparently, it did help a little to understand the both sexes but ultimately, reading can't do the work - it takes 2 hands to clap.

When things goes wrong, i'll aggravate my melancholy by indulging in those depressing novels because only then will i feel the pierce through my heart and floodgates will open. Yes, im an oddball. There's so much things i wish i could undo and yet, there's so much that i want to do or say. It takes courage to have accomplishments, maybe i lacked the valor to.

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.

When the deciding coin is tossed

2008-06-30T10:29:00.005+08:00

The weekends were pretty much occupied with the june race going on. It sure feels different to be rowing in a team where everyone were not as enthusiastic and not possessing the fervour to achieve something. No doubt, trainings were not cramped almost everyday - we reap what we sow. Monday blues set in again because the weekends just had to swift past. Just yesterday, i was still with the boyfriend at the Times books warehouse sale, having a crab feast and playing mahjong with my dearest cousins & girlfriend. And just 2 days ago, i was happily prancing around, chatting with the girls (forgetting that i brought camera, so no pictures) and staying over at the boyfriend's. Now, all these had to disintegrate into thin air and sealed into my memory. We can't catch the past.

Well, it's time to start the engine rolling by training hard for the nus run relay and the safra bay 10km run. Nevertheless, i've got some good reads to put away random thoughts for the time being.

Tasteful to my liking

2008-06-26T12:13:00.006+08:00

For the past days, i've been browsing through the job portals searching for a job. It's always the sending of resumes and entering of particulars, how boring can that get. I went for 3 interviews yesterday and rejected a job which requires me to make direct marketing by walking door to door as a marketing trainee. However, despite the usual tensed interviews, 2 of them sparked off conversation with me when they learnt i was from dragonboat beacuse they were ex-rowers too- how interesting. I learnt that so many admin jobs in the market are up for grabs but data entry is so not my kind of thing because it's extremely monotonous and so i rejected one although it fetches a good pay. I'm still waiting for good news for the events job but i have a hunch i wouldnt make the cut for it.

Meanwhile i'm contented with what i am doing now becasue those primary school kids are so innocently cute - at times. I would not want to be locked in a cage. I want to fly high. I'm in need of a good read to fill my palette with more colors. Any recommendations?

The boyfriend took leave on monday, we trained in school, collected our 3 years hard earned paper, made him a pair of new glasses, lunched at chinatown and caught 'Don't mess with the Zohan' at PS.

Inconsiderate act caught on cell;

I am not the girlfriend

2008-06-19T11:24:00.008+08:00

I am seeking seclusion in my comfort zone, away from those despicable happenings. I've made up my mind to sit here and wait, even if it means getting my ass sore. In such times, there are some things we do to convince ourselves that it is a better way out. It is far easier than telling ourselves the truth. Affairs of the heart is too much of a profound insight for me to fathom - i don't wish to, either. Being in and out of love is part of growing up. Losing someone dear may end up in an emotional wreckage, then again, it is the process. I want to detach myself from all these and be at my liberty to fly. Maybe to me, eluding is always the best option because there is simply nothing to work it out. There is.

When it comes to keeping my emotions a discrete, im not a professional because im always exploited. I hold on to my values and expectations but hey, not everyone is perfect. Even the perfectionist is not entirely so. Our feelings are manipulative and words shoot through the heart so fast that it bleeds. "I'm sorry" - too much overtime would turn into numbness. Everything should just come to a halt.

NYDC at heeren;

Making the efforts

2008-06-16T16:28:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we'd get caught in the midst of thinking - even the slightest thing that exists. In the whirlwind of events and people around you, it is often hard and tiring to think and decide. At some moments, you can actually feel the squeeze on your brain muscles. Even when we're sleeping, our brains are constantly functioning. So i'd guess the time when we'll finally stop thinking is when we are dead. This explains why some people are mentally tired and it certainly takes a longer time to heal than the physical. Maybe most poeple are simply lazy to think so they'd always follow the crowd and being led by the nose without even realising. I have my moments too but i hope not to that extreme.

A sky of hope

2008-06-09T16:02:00.011+08:00

A ripple of wind ran through the long grass at the edge of the field beyond the hedge, and ruffled the leaves. It blew Jackie's scarf across her face and she wriggled to be let out of the pushchair. I undid the strap and she struggled free, then feeling playful after being held down for so long, she started to run round, peeping out at me from behind the grave stones, clambering onto chunks of granite and sliding clumsily off them again, pointing and laughing at marble angels.

'No Jackie,' I started to say, 'not here.' It seemed disrespectful to the dead somehow, to use the graveyard as a playground. But then I thought of Ben in my dream, swimming free and happy, strong and supple away into the middle of the lake, and I let her play. Ben wouldn't have minded, I was quite sure of that. He'd have tried to folloe her, getting his dungarees muddy and laughing everytime she whisked her sweet little face around to wave at him.

The week was filled with much merry making. No doubt, trainings brighten up my life despite the tiredness - the adrenaline rush. However, i am partially skeptical in participating the 21k run because Zak & i have not been running much to clock the distance. I am contemplating despite Zak's adamant insistence to it. Yes, i am not an ardent runner.

Wednesday at pasta mania;

Thursday at crystal jade hongkong cafe;

J.Co;

Pizzahut;

Sugar, sweets and everything nice

2008-06-02T17:28:00.003+08:00

Kids nowadays are living in their comfy and liberated zones - owing to their well-educated and high paying parents. Most of them - primary school kids, will be equipped with the latest technology; camera phone, mp3 or even a PSP. During my time, we'd just be bothered to play hop scotch and five stones, few even knew what was handphone all about. With more liberation in school rules lately, kids are allow to bring their mobile and parents will then be able to contact their precious ones. During mine, there would always be routine checks for handphones - ready to be confiscated and redeemed by parents. On the hind side, some parents may not be as well-to-do but they struggled real hard to give the best to their child. Social patterns of people are drastically shedding its old skin to welcome the new era. Is it for the better or worst? I can only say they are too much pampered.

Friday was intended for catching a movie because i thought i could buy the tickets off the net with ibanking but somehow the GV system was not working and i could not check the ibanking box. After almost an hour trying to reach GV for help, i gave up - the line is forever engaged. Headed down to Marina to meet my mum & aunt for dinner, chilled for a shortwhile at Coffee Club; ice mocha vanilla, ice earl vanilla and mud pie. Dinner was steamboat buffet at Suntec - it was unworthy of the value.

His fave mudpie;

Sunday at Mushroom Hotpot Buffet for dinner - Stadium Waterfront, with the regulars after my rowing.

Norms of a typical day

2008-05-25T22:38:00.005+08:00

My weekends are rather productive because after the long torturing cease down period, i can actually resume those activities that fulfilled my purpose in this life. And also to revive the once lost feeling of smelly kallang water and satisfaction after a long day's hot & intense training. Today junhong was asking what's the meaning of shag and how tired is shag, i secretly thought that it is quite silly of him to not know. Then the idea of how the generation had changed over the years just struck me. Yes, this is how fast the society changes; children are getting smarter each year, syllabus are getting harder, bench mark for national examinations are getting higher. Maybe the slow & steady suits me best because it always wins the race, does it? Maybe not in this time round.

We were supposed to catch a movie in Vivo yesterday but tickets were sold out. Disappointment set in because it would always be the case for us to catch a movie in Vivo. No movies and this led us to kaya & butter bread at harbour front and back to the boyfriend's area to catch the movie - 'Accuracy of Death'. It is almost a replica of the book 'For one more day' where it revolves around life and death. However, the movie was rather monotonous and i admit i fidgeted quite abit in my seat. Sorry.

He's never too quick to judge. You're loved(:

I'll trade anything just to mend those times

2008-05-22T10:33:00.002+08:00

When i was 13, i had this malay guy as my classmate but it was not until 14 that we started talking to each other and without realising, we became so close that everyone who knew us literally thought we were together. Whenever he was late for school, i would feel a tad disppointed and wonder if he would still be down. Lessons were never boring when he was around because we'd always sit side by side and talk non-stop - there was this one time, the teacher had to change our seats. After school, we'd always go home together if nothing came in the way. At times, he would come to my house to hang around or had dinner with my family. He was also a great helper who drew my DnT pictures and helped me with the practical. Yes, like all best friends, we did quarrelled but it takes a little coaxing to do the trick.

The memorable episode was after our prelims, we made use of the study break to travel to NTU almost everyday to meet our teacher for extra lessons. Then it will be till the wee hours that we bid each other goodbye after he sent me home. After the O'levels, he confessed to me on msn. I was taken aback by it but after much pondering, i decided to give it a go. Never will i imagined, things would turn upside down for us because the chemistry was not there and everything's wrong right in the beginning. I finally told him the truth that we would not work out. It was vague - i admit; i din't give myself a chance to give a concise explanation. No doubt, it was a terrible setback for him.

Since then, i did not manage to contact him because his hp line was cut off and i no longer saw him on msn. After a few years, i got to know his hp number from a friend and i text him. However, things had apparently changed over the years, that closeness could not be felt again. I truly regretted why i even started a relationship with him when everything's going fine as platonic friends then. It is impossible to rewind back and undo those grave mistakes committed. Yes, i would desire that kind of friendship i fostered with him if there comes a chance in time to come.

'You know all I ask is for a chance to mend those times.'

When the world stops turning

2008-05-20T09:50:00.005+08:00

Yes. My blog was stagnant for the past few days because my mind was lagged and when finally i could have the computer all to myself, im just too worn out to post. I am totally clueless how i actually feel sometimes - for everything that had happened to me; it's hard not to have emotions running all over me constantly. Most of the time, i could not handle these but let it manipulate my mind. Unprecedented events always occur - never having happened before does not mean won't happen. Maybe i should induct myself into wonderland so that i can incalcate some positive outlook notions in my heavily polluted mindset.

I get to realise now how tough it is to have a strong will power & determination and this particular person whom i met through dragonboating inspires me. Cliche as it may sound but i admit it was his first appearance that caught my attention. Well, that's the same case for Zak, if you're reading. Because he won the Amazing Race Asia despite being a hearing impaired and given that his speech was also affected and also because he told a story about his life.

On the right is Adrian;

A piece of heaven sheltering above me

2008-05-13T11:43:00.015+08:00

Its the second week of May but it doesn't feel like it because i've lost track of time. I've been feeling quite excited because i can finally get back to training with the girls like the good old days - not to say that everything's gonna be the same but at least a nostalgia of those training days will be retain. Yesterday evening was spent with Zak, Pam & YS, dinner was at Long John's. Yes, gossips as usual at Starbucks and coincidentally chanced upon Vincent. What a small world or maybe Singapore is just so tiny. Well, at least i get to see them - more of them when i resume training maybe?

'Battle of the titans' quoted by Pam.

Notice the red slippers.

Mommy's favourite

2008-05-11T12:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY(:
I bought this watch for my dearest mommy.

http://www.swatch.com/sg_ms/watches/ss2008_corecollection.html

Summer love

2008-05-09T21:27:00.005+08:00

Mother's day is kicking in together with her birthday, i've been a very filial daughter who had prepared almost everything for her. I love my mum like how a joey clings onto its mother, because she gets along pretty well with the boyfriend, says the most random things and taught me cantonese. Somehow the boyfriend is picking it up but often on the wrong side - all thanks to my mum. Somehow she touched my life;this is somehing im certain of.

PS with the boyfriend & 'Iron Man' after that;

PS: You put a smile on my face.

Right in your face

2008-05-03T22:32:00.006+08:00

The weekends are finally kicking in and it had been quite sometime that i had last seen a couple of friends. I got to meet up with Kegan and Justin awhile ago, spent precious time jabbering and eating. Here i am blogging when i am supposed to be with the boyfriend right now because of some stupid cadets who lost their navigation and the boyfriend had to wait for them to be back. Brunei is barely a week away and i totally abhor the idea -somehow i am going to end up like Estee.

Sometimes the thought of smothering my tutee is going to come true soon because i've almost lost my patience with him. A couple of times he would go like this:
Me: Do you undestand?
Him: HANNAH! (Agitated)
How annoying can that get?!!

Wednesday was bunking in at the boyfriend's and pasta mania at TM and our intention to catch 'Iron Man' was to be abandon because the cinema was literally full.

Thursaday was barbequing at downtown east which was a tad boring and the boyfriend's turn to bunk in.

One day, twenty-four hours

2008-04-29T11:09:00.003+08:00

A few days ago while on msn, my friend said how time flies because 3 yrs back, he was still whining to me about his ex;had a new gf now and a year back about this time, he was still asking me for job recommendation;serving the nation now. Well, as cliched as it may sound, i do agree with him. 3 years back, i just entered poly; now i had graduated and 2 years back, how someone caught my heart;we're still staying strong till now.

Life is always made up of 'thens' and 'nows', i am so fascinated how each day passed in a glimpse even though how some people whined it off and procrastinate how each day is passing so miserably slow.

Yesterday came a surprise -barely, maybe because this had already happened a couple of times but i'm always glad enough to see the boyfriend book out. Now that Brunei is almost a week away, i'd of course want him around more often. Maybe he might get another nights out today(:

chao PSP gamer

Catch me tenderly

2008-04-26T17:49:00.003+08:00

For the fact that i am feeling groggy and down with a fever made me weakened and dazed infront of the television with all my battle equipments, trying hard to keep myself warm. My companion was not at all here by me, no one to blame for it because there ought to be some unforeseen cicumstances. The week is indeed long, however here it is - saturday is right before me. A day that i'd usually strained my neck so long for, but unfortunately not today. A shoulder for me to lean on, a hand for me to hold onto - i have to abandon the thought. It can sometimes be a pleasure yet be a thousand sufferings at the same time. Such a paradox, will you go for it?

Go, Went, Gone

2008-04-21T10:51:00.006+08:00

My friend's dad, who is also my neighbour passed away just a few days ago on friday. He died of cancer at the age of 49, he contracted it since 2003. No doubt, he lived strong till that very day. It was a momentary heart pangs when i heard the news from my mum, it hit my emotions so hard that it almost trigger my floodgates.

Sometimes i often wonder what would it be in the afterlife? Does it even exists? I cannot imagine losing my close friends, especially my loved ones - how hurt would it be? Indescribable. All I can do is cherish every single moments, even in the midst of taking things for granted.

The boyfriend is going to Brunei soon and another trip to Taiwan. Something not to look forward to. If all are smooth, i'll probably end up in Estee's plight now that ibano's away in Taiwan.

Ice3 cafe & pratas;

Skipping merrily

2008-04-17T12:01:00.007+08:00

The weekends are kicking in. Yes, again. This week had been filled with much sentiments with the boyfriend's double surprise of him booking out on monday and tuesday.

Tuesday dinner after my tuition

Wednesday at Crystal Jade

Paint the rainbow with a tinge of golden

2008-04-12T22:23:00.003+08:00

Looking back at those times when i was throwing my little tantrums, sweared & cursed at the heat of the moment and left those affected dumb folded. Often, an apologise cures all problems but overtime, the word 'Sorry' seem to be redundant. It's afterall the sincerity that always counts or maybe the pledge to not commit the same offence again is sincerely executed in time to come. The latter would result in an empty pledge.
It is almost impossible to free a broken glass from the slightest defects, the only way is to mend it as close to perfect as possible. Sometimes i wish i could reach for the overside of the rainbow and to tell an impressive tale of their granny to my grandchildren.

Wednesday - Sakura with Yunn Sin & Zak

PS: You know i'm disheartened through silence when my fatal kick hit so hard on you.

Anointing faith in a second

2008-04-07T18:20:00.003+08:00

My package arrived today, a reason for me to beam after done watching The Seventh Day- a soap opera i often indulged in. Melodramas no doubt give the greenlight for my floodgates.

It is so facetious how life appears to be, everyone trying hard to reach out for all the riches in the world, with the perception to seal it off with a happy ending. Yes, living a simple life is a norm, but why all those hassle to fight for a socialite living, where it appears to be in a faraway land. A never-never land for the mass.

True bliss is created in one's own hands.